3 clues your marriage may be running on empty (and what you can do about it)
Today I’m excited to feature Lisa Murray, a licensed marriage and family therapist, as a guest-blogger on my Shining the Light blog. Lisa is a self-described “Jesus girl and recovering perfectionist” with a passion to encourage and empower individuals—whether in their hearts, their marriages, or their faith—to cultivate healing and wholeness that will awaken a heart of peace. Check out more on Lisa below, including how to connect with her on social media and get her book, Peace For A Lifetime.
By Lisa Murray, LMFT
It was the perfect day for a wedding. Their eyes were filled with love and longing, their dreams diffused by the tint of their rose-colored glasses.
Those early years together tore through like a whirlwind. The first little house, the first bouncing baby, the first big job promotion—it was all exciting, almost intoxicating—as if they were writing the opening chapters of a romance novel.
They dreamed about how they would build their lives together. “The sacrifices we make today will pay off in the end,” they told themselves. “One day we will have the dream. One day we’ll be living the dream.”
It was all too good to be true, really. Whether it was the jobs, the moves, the kids, or the in-laws, without a whisper or a knock, the distance began to steal into their relationship and pull them apart.
One day she recognized they no longer looked at one another, no longer sat on the back porch with their fingers intertwined, unwinding together as the sun fell beneath the horizon. There were many no longers, she pondered.
Many couples start their marriage with a spark and a fire that feels like forever, only to wake up one day to the reality that emotionally, they are barely existing on fumes. We would never expect a fire to burn without something to fan the flame, but when there’s nothing left of our love but a few cold embers, we’re left wondering how we ever got to this place. We long to heal the distance and find our way back to one another.
Here are three signs your marriage could be emotionally empty and what you can do about it:
The absence of feelings
We have believed the lie that feelings are bad, that showing or expressing feelings is a sign of unforgivable weakness. When we first started dating, sharing feelings was different. Things felt so safe, so real. We were curious about anything and everything that had to do with our mate. Expressing emotions was as natural as the slow inhale before we said, I love you. Yet if we’re honest, most of our feelings back then were positive, as they should have been. We were in the slow waltz of falling in love.
Over time, however, once the honeymoon passes and we come face to face with many of the startling and messy realities of human connection, negative feelings begin to mount and we no longer feel as safe with our partner as we did during our courtship. In that moment, many couples slowly start to shut down, turn away, and avoid the other’s gaze.
We hide behind superficial exchanges and pale routines, focusing instead on the children, the schedules, and the responsibilities. The only feelings that crowd our hearts are the feelings of anger and resentment, the feelings of pure pain and rejection that we can barely stifle as we sit silently eating dinner, coolly conversing about everything and nothing at all.
When was the last heart-to-heart conversation you had with your husband or wife that didn’t include anger, accusations, or criticism? Do your primary interactions with your spouse center around the schedules and tasks of the day? How can you begin to share your deepest feelings, fears, and self with your mate?
You can foster resilience in your relationship today by engaging your feelings, not shutting them down. Take a risk, lean in and share. Don’t expect anything in return. Whether we get back what we think we want or need, we create opportunities for courage to flourish and intimacy to grow, simply by sharing.
“Therefore encourage one another and build up one another, just as you also are doing.” 1 Thessalonians 5:11
A lack of compassion
We all long for a safe place to land, a place where we can be seen and heard, a place where we can be accepted for who we are—our strengths and our weaknesses, a place where we can take risks and explore fresh curiosities. In what should be the safest space for us to heal and grow, our marriages often become battlefields where we simply try to avoid getting hit by the next round of fire.
We live in a world where compassion is scarce and criticism, control, and shame abound. Our relationships measure our imperfections, our failures and inadequacies. Because we are too afraid to own our individual shortcomings, we become masters at pointing out everyone else’s.
There is little room to risk when there is no compassion. Little desire to become vulnerable when so much of our safety is at stake. Little courage to engage when the sting of rejection looms so large in our hearts and our minds.
We can foster compassion in our relationships by first learning how to be compassionate with ourselves. When we embrace our own belovedness, our worth, when we stop striving so hard for the unattainable and start giving ourselves a path towards acceptance, wholeness, and creativity, only then can we offer compassion to our spouses.
Can you begin to offer yourself more compassion, more kindness as you move through your day? Can you begin to offer your spouse compassion as they walk on their journey? Can you cheer them, comfort them, or encourage them? Can you offer them the same kindness you would like to be shown, even if they fail to acknowledge it or even reciprocate it?
“So, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.” Colossians 3:12
A deficit of meaning
In a recent article, psychologists Gary Reker and Phillip Wong defined meaning as, “The cognizance of order, coherence and purpose in one’s existence, the pursuit and attainment of worthwhile goals, and an accompanying sense of fulfillment.” Meaning can help buffer against despair, withdrawal, and isolation. Existential psychiatrist Viktor Frankl believed the need for meaning was a crucial force in people from the time they were born until their last breath.
Meaning is the glue that connects the experiences of our lives in a story. Our shared story creates intimacy and closeness in our relationships. Meaning allows us to endure hardship and overcome suffering. Meaning weaves two hearts into one.
When couples shut down their feelings, when they shut down compassion, they inevitably shut down the meaning birthed from the narrative they author about their lives and their relationship. They stifle the fulfillment that comes from dreaming about their futures, their children and grandchildren. As a result, intimacy evaporates and as the emotional bankruptcy settles in, there is little to hold them together, little to fuel the connection their relationship requires in order to thrive.
Brene Brown shares the importance of meaning in our relationships by stating, “Connection is why we’re here; it is what gives purpose and meaning to our lives.”
The life of Christ models for us a life built on meaning and connection. As Jesus walked with His disciples from city to city, preaching and performing miracles, at times encountering hardship and rejection, they created meaning for themselves on their journeys, and meaning for us today. How important it is for each of us in our relationships to dare to lean in, share our emotions, and create a rich narrative, in a way that strengthens us for the journey ahead. Disconnection and distance destroys. Meaning magnifies. It strengthens our collective roots.
Can you begin to engage your spouse and share your struggles? Can you create a collective narrative based on your mutual beliefs and values in a way that strengthens your connection? Can you dare to dream again? Can you reimagine and recreate your life together?
Many individuals keep waiting for their partner to change before they will change, further continuing the cycle of emotional emptiness, distance, and despair. You don’t have to wait on anyone for you to face your fear and take the chance to lean in. Healing begins with one person who is willing to reach toward courage, wholeness, and Emotional Abundance, which I write about in my book, Peace For A Lifetime: Embracing a life of hope, wholeness, and harmony through emotional abundance.
As you learn to express more feelings (other than anger), as you create more compassion in your own heart and with each other, and as you cultivate greater meaning from your shared stories, you may wake up to discover your relationship becoming richer with connection and intimacy. You may find your marriage growing into a safe a place for you to heal and grow on your individual journey. And you may cultivate a new way forward that not only protects your marriage from becoming emotionally bankrupt, but allows you to experience an abundance you never knew existed.
Lisa Murray is a licensed marriage and family therapist, a Jesus girl and a recovering perfectionist. Her passion is to encourage and empower individuals—whether in their hearts, their marriages, or their faith—to cultivate healing and wholeness that will awaken a heart of peace. Her book, Peace For A Lifetime, is available on Amazon. She writes weekly at LisaMurrayOnline.com. You can follow her on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Pinterest.